more than this...

I woke up and the world outside was dark
All so quiet before the dawn
Opened up the door and walked outside
The ground was cold

I walked until I couldn’t walk anymore
To a place I’d never been
There was something stirring in the air
In front of me, I could see

More than this
More than this
So much more than this
There is something else there
When all that you had has all gone
And more than this
I stand
Feeling so connected
And I’m all there
Right next to you

It started when I saw the ship go down
I saw them struggle in the sea
And suddenly the picture disappears
In front of me

Now we’re busy making all our busy plans
On foundations built to last
But nothing fades as fast as the future
And nothing clings like the past, until we can see

More than this
More than this
So much more than this
There is something out there
More than this
It’s coming through
And more than this
I stand alone and so connected
And I’m all there
Right next to you

Oh then it’s alright
When with every day another bit falls away
Oh but it’s still alright, alright, alright
And like words together we can make some sense

Much more than this
Way beyond imagination
Much more than this
Beyond the stars
With my head so full
So full of fractured pictures
And I’m all there
Right next to you
So much more than this
There is something else there
When all that you had has all gone
And more than this
I’m alone
Feeling so connected
And I’m all there right next to you

More than this
More than this
More than this

i like this song!! A LOT!!
peter gabriel wrote it, and he did a good job, but the polyphonic spree cover is AMAZING!! im not gonna lie.

sorry guys i suck at blogging lately! oh well... too bad for you! bwahahaha! no one checks this anyways.

holy crap ive been cubed...

The Cube. Answer each question for yourself thoroughly before moving on to the next.

1.) Imagine a desert landscape. It's very simple . . . horizon, sand, sky, whatever you see when you think of a desert.

2.) In this desert there is . . . a cube!
What does the cube look like? What's it made of (if you know)? What color is it? How big? Is it sitting on the sand, or in some other position? How close or far away is it?

3.) In this desert there is also a ladder. Where is it (in relation to the cube)? What is it made of? What position is it in? Does it have many rungs? A few rungs?

4.) In this desert there now appears . . . a horse. Where is the horse? What color is it? What is it doing? Does it have on a saddle or bridle, or not?

5.) Now, somewhere in the desert there is a storm. What kind of storm is it? Where is it? And does it affect the cube, the ladder, the horse, or not?

6.) Finally, somewhere in the desert are flowers. Where are they (in relation to the cube, ladder, horse, storm)? What kind are they? Are they many or few? Scattered or clustered?


http://ambivablog.typepad.com/ambivablog/files/the_key_to_the_cube
http://personal.ansir.com/cube/glossary.html
to to that site for teh answers!



here are my answers!
1. its your typical desert, yellow sand, blue sky, dunes and a few cactii

2. its 3ft by 3ft... translucent cube... mainly ungulating shades of blue and green and opaque, its in the sky, pretty high up, taller than me

3. the ladder is wooden and leaning up against the cube...just hitting the bottom of the cube, it is old, weatherworn...

4. the horse is pretty close, on a different dune though, rearing up and white, a stallion. not going away, but not comming closer either. no saddle or bridle.

5. the storm is off to the left, like the nothing from the neverending story... but its holding in place for now, some wind and clouds are blocking a little sun from the horse and the cube, not effecting the ladder at all...

6. flowers are everywhere in lil clusters. all around. on everything.

the source 

the source 

letting go 

letting go 3 

growth, other side, crappier pic 

desloation3 

growth, crappy pic 

same thing 

angst 

selfportrait 

desloation2 

desolation 

backwash front 

backwash closeup 

backwash 1 

jam band 

it was requested that i put some of my stuff up so here they are!  

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Marie
Birthday:	08-11-82
Birthplace:	spartanburg, sc
Current Location:	charlotte, nc
Eye Color:	gray-blue
Hair Color:	dark blonde
Height:	5'3"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	czech and american mutt
The Shoes You Wore Today:	mary janes
Your Weakness:	beer and hot wings
Your Fears:	the dark amongst other things
Your Perfect Pizza:	i cant eat pizza, im alergic to wheat, rub it in already
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	get into grad school
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	all of them
Thoughts First Waking Up:	my clock is 10 min fast, i can still sleep
Your Best Physical Feature:	im gorgeous
Your Bedtime:	whenever... usually 1 or 2
Your Most Missed Memory:	friends my own age
Pepsi or Coke:	pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	gross
Single or Group Dates:	single, but dates arent all that fun
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	dunno the difference
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	COFFEE
Do you Smoke:	sometimes
Do you Swear:	yes, but not at work
Do you Sing:	you cant stop me!!
Do you Shower Daily:	well i teach swimming lessons, so i dont have to right?
Have you Been in Love:	sure
Do you want to go to College:	already did, more than once
Do you want to get Married:	eventually
Do you belive in yourself:	sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no, why?
Do you think you are Attractive:	sure do
Are you a Health Freak:	absolutely not
Do you get along with your Parents:	yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	when im not driving
Do you play an Instrument:	i used to
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	sure did
In the past month have you Smoked:	sure did
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	unfortunately yes, and much to my dismay i will go again
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	ew
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes!!!!
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yep
In the past month have you been Dumped:	dont think so
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	too cold
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	not on purpose
Ever been Drunk:	absolutely
Ever been called a Tease:	probably
Ever been Beaten up:	in elementary school
Ever Shoplifted:	i once stole a pack of gum
How do you want to Die:	i dont, but its ok if i do eventually
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	something important
What country would you most like to Visit:	costa rica
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	brown
Favourite Hair Color:	blonde-dark brown
Short or Long Hair:	doesnt matter all that much
Height:	taller than me
Weight:	not a complete blob
Best Clothing Style:	clean
Number of Drugs I have taken:	not many, brain still intact?
Number of CDs I own:	i dont care
Number of Piercings:	dont care
Number of Tattoos:	love em!
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	as few as possible
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

so its time for another quote page!

thanks google quote of the day for these! i did my junior exit project on James Thurber. hes a funny guy!

All human beings should try to learn before they die what they are running from, and to, and why.

James Thurber

To err is human--and to blame it on a computer is even more so.

Robert Orben

Nowadays men lead lives of noisy desperation.
James Thurber (1894 - 1961)

Politics is perhaps the only profession for which no preparation is thought necessary.

Robert Louis Stevenson (1850 - 1894)

He who hesitates is sometimes saved.
James Thurber

I loathe the expression "What makes him tick." It is the American mind, looking for simple and singular solution, that uses the foolish expression. A person not only ticks, he also chimes and strikes the hour, falls and breaks and has to be put together again, and sometimes stops like an electric clock in a thunderstorm.

James Thurber

It is better to know some of the questions than all of the answers.

James Thurber

There are two kinds of light--the glow that illuminates, and the glare that obscures.

James Thurber

You might as well fall flat on your face as lean over too far backward.

James Thurber

You can fool too many of the people too much of the time.

James Thurber

Early to rise and early to bed makes a male healthy and wealthy and dead.

James Thurber

im gonna try to stop being a hater!

RECLAIM CHRISTMAS!


Take Christmas back from advertisers and pagans this year by NOT giving presents!!
CELEBRATE by helping to put right some of the brokenness we have caused in the world! DONATE to your favorite charity, church or whatever organization you prefer in the name of the person for which you are giving. Work in a soup kitchen, invite over family and friends and listen and care about them instead of throwing presents at them and scooting them out the door. Celebrate the incarnation of Christ by honoring what that did for christians... gave us a relationship with God. for those in the dark about the term, its the act of grace by which Christ took our human nature in union with the Divine nature and became flesh! The union is hypostatical, i.e., is personal; the two natures are not muxed nor confounded, and it is perpetual; Acts 20:28, Rom 8:32, 1Cor 2:8, Heb 2:11-14, 1 Tim 3:16, Gal 4:4. its crazy i know.
Quit being hypocritical and remember that if you say your a christian you shouldnt be distracted by santa claus. if you get the gimmies, cure them with the givies! you dont need all that poorly manufactured crap anyways, AND those sales arent real, these companies plan their year around christmas, so they can gouge you for every dime that you have! kind of like oil companies.
remember what we wouldnt have without christ (from a christian perspective), relationship with god (its not that im an evangelist, im an informant who reads too much doctrine. for real. i know you guys didnt think i could read, but it turns out... IM LITERATE! woo hoo)
Celebrate your relationships with friends and family to honor the incarnation of christ! woo hoo!
im gonna stop being a hater someday!


ok for real! i went and heard this really famous dude, NT Wright, Bishop of Durham
check out this site its pretty informative.
this dude is SO well read and he remembers it all. he did a fantastic job of highlighting empire in modernity and post modernity and then Jesus and Lord vs Caesar as Lord and the Power struggle in the current economic empire. i cant explain to you how glad i am that i was able to go!

so my notes are outside, so ill fill in the rest later!

i hate christmas and thanksgiving

Happy "its not quite the holidays" time. Take a deep breath, and brace yourself.  we are in the final days of very near peace, cause the air is electric like the whole world is about to exlpode.. its the lull before the GREED tsunami that we call family holidays...  don't worry your seat cushion turns into a floatation device and your armrests turn into a mask and snorkle. pull the cushion up and out then hug it to your chest because your life depends on it, while trying frantically to secure your mask and snorkle to your head so you will be immune to all the bullshit that is about to hit you like a ton of bricks.  i don't like these holidays... clearly. 
they just seem so cheap. its certianly not christian anymore. i dont want ANOTHER pile of shit i didnt even know i wanted. there is a difference in giving out of love and just shoveling it at people to keep up appearances.  i mean i know for a fact that the people in my family who arent my parents or siblings will just rummage around in their basements, garages or "re-gifting" drawers wrap it and call it a gift.  well its crap. i hate it. do they really need to REaffirm that they dont like me EVERY year? i just dont think its necessary.  thanksgiving used to be painful until we stopped making it a family affair and started having friends over and parting hard. thanks giving needs to be just that, or we just shouldnt celebrate it at all, cause honestly its like celebrating that our ancestors very nearly killed off a whole race of people in order to form a less perfect union and destroy the world!! woo hoo!
sorry i got a little carried away there. i wouldnt really have a family that knew anything about each other if it wasnt for these cheesy holidays.  now as far as the reason for the season and all... christianity is all about relationships, forming them, maintaining them, not breaking them...  so i guess we are very nearly on the track next to the right track.  halmark, walmart, KB toys, etc... are nudging us HARD in the wrong directions though. 
we should all be like my friend scott and be generous, loving and forgiving ALL YEAR ROUND.... i know its hard to fathom, but lets give it a shot... ok?
im really not asking for presents this year. if you feel like giving me something, stop yourself, and they donate to your favorite charity or contribute to my campaign for my own  higher education, because school aint free yet.
yea, its true, i also think its poor stewardship to make people pay for seminary, but the church aint got much money blah blah blah...
i hate money. its the root of all evil, far too friendly with power, which is absolutely corrupting... 
christmas is is a really sucky time of the year for some of us. people without families, people who arent christians, single people, those prodigal sons and daughters... it might be better this year though, since its in vogue to find yourself and all. well shit if maddonna did it, so can i!
also in vogue is getting married and then divorced as quickly as possible. i mean for real, this trend is BAD. its completely cheapening the sacrament of marriage, and dating in general. when you marry someone you make a committment to them, for better or for worse. its not a cheap magic trick. there is more at stake here than just you, when you get married you become "we" which means two individuals together. its hard work man, but its totally worth it.  breaking that relationship is bad for all parties involved.  its just riduculous that people are profiting off marrages and divorces, and the pain of other people. its so dumb. dumd, dumb, dumb. it has completely cheapend the idea of marriage and relation, did i say that already. no one had any respect for anyone else anymore. rar.
even david spade did a bit in his "there i said it" segment on it. i wish i could find it. i searched for like 20 min. rar.
well i guess im done now.
ill talk to ya lata!

so it turns out im totally a yuppie... a vintage yuppie... tee hee. for real this is the most awesome outfit pretty much ever.  

here is a collage of pics from my trip to KY... i would say its a pretty accurate representation...  

finally!  

the whole crew!  

margo again 

margo 

me and my boyfriend napolean..  

new haircut and awesome glasses!